Goud mariebilly I'm back after the 11 month hiatus from the show, I had been working on another show by show lovable survivor this year and 2023. I have not done a new episode of this podcast since October of 2022. It is now second week of September 2023. And I am back for episode 37. I am excited to be back I have lots of new things, lots of new tools, lots of new topics, things I really want to talk about. So I'm excited to get back to the show. And I hope you're excited to come back and listen. I hope you're all doing well. I'm very excited I every week, I have a new format, a little bit more focused, not the most focused but more focused. This I love little survivor is a show where I talk primarily about stroke recovery, Ms. All the things that I have been a part of the last several years. So this show will be kind of a new outlet and hangout space where we'll talk about things that are hard things that are weird things that are scary things that are stupid. And yeah, this is episode 37. This is just a little introduction before we hop into today's episode. But things I want to talk about things I forgot about in yesterday's recording. You know, I think every week we'll talk about three or four topics. The goal is to bring this back and be fired up about those topics. They are topics that means something to be hopefully means something you audience members that are listening. You know, just insights, thoughts, opinions. Yeah, like I said on the podcast, we'll bring on some guests in the future. Again, it'll start with me, primarily, just because it's easier to get going. And once we get back in the flow and the rhythm and we really start hitting our stride again, bring on some guests, and we can talk about all those things that are hard, weird, scary and stupid and part of life. Let's see today is Saturday, September 9, when I'm recording this and I'm excited to talk about things in the upcoming episodes. Just you know, off the top of my head, real estate open houses. I don't know why those are still saying other parents complaining at schools. So if you are a parent, you are a father you are a mother or brother or sister. Yeah, I think it'll be lots of fun topics. I'm fired up about a lot of stuff. I'm honestly I'm fired up about the US Open today. That was exciting. Miami football is looking good. Colorado Dion is exciting. So I hope you're excited. I hope you like this episode 37 We hopped back in the saddle. And yeah, I talked about the future and I'm really looking forward to getting back to it. Hopefully I'll do well and I really do hope that you enjoy this week's episode 37 The Return of the local area podcast. Money Schmierer Welcome back to another episode of The Global Indian podcast today. It is sometime in September of 2023 and I have am back Swizz episode 37. It has been quite the hiatus. It has been a almost a year 11 months I think, almost to the day. Since we've done an episode. A lot has changed a lot is new. I'm a little thinner. As you can see me now with this podcast. I will be recording these and putting them on YouTube, in addition to plenty of them on your favorite podcast app. So yeah, I'm excited to be back. I have been working on some new things. Some of you may have seen it. Some of you may have heard of it. I do have another podcast I just recorded episode 29 of the level wall survivor, which is a survivor focused podcast for those who have suffered a brain injury stroke traumatic brain injury concussion, any and all. Brain Injury sort of major life event. Honestly, it's applicable to just about anybody if I'm being honest, it's it is primarily to help survivors. But yeah, it's good. It's focused, it's got a theme and you know, I've been doing that most of 2023 Be in the podcast world. So that one is rockin and rollin things are good over there. It is a different audience it is, you know, just a different outlet for me. I think I started it this year to focus more to focus my businesses a little better. Specifically around working with survivors, it is not an easy journey. As you may or may not recall, my stroke was in 2019, December 2019. So yeah, it's been an interesting almost four years in the recovery journey. I've learned a lot. I've changed a lot. Things are good things are different. You know, I won't get too much into it here. But yeah, everything is better and things are good over there. However, I've learned to really have systems and do the podcast thing on a more serious level. And I think now I'm ready to get back to this show. I love the name of this podcast, I always have I love kind of, even if this show never becomes more than me talking to all my friends at one time, that's fine. It's just it's a good creative outlet for me. As you may recall, I was very into woodworking prior to my stroke, I still am into woodworking, although I do it just less now because I want to keep all my fingers. You know, I think I'm reintroducing that in my life. Slowly but surely a lot, because it a lot has changed over the last four years since my stroke. And since my MS diagnosis, even since last year, I think literally the day after, because I believe the last recording of this episode was October 5 2022. And so believe it or not, my big ass has been running almost every single day. Since the last recording of this show, October 5 of 2022. In fact, October 6, I have run every day of the year since except for four days three, we were out of town when there was a little hiccup in my life with something that happened in our household. So yeah, just haven't run for a whole four days in the year of 2023. So yeah, I'm excited to be back. This episode is probably going to drag on a little bit. I have a ton of notes. I have a ton of things I want to talk about. kind of talk about some life updates, some goals, some of the things that have changed around me some family things different kind of a reintroduction, if you will, I don't want to call it as Season Two because I hate the seasons thing when it comes to podcasts. I don't know. I mean, it works for some shows, but it's not really I don't care. I've never understood the reasoning behind seasons for podcasts unless you're very clearly doing one thing for like a year taking a break. Doing another thing in year two, keeping it the same show just never made sense to me, but I'm sure it does to others. And so we continue on episode 37 Yeah, topics galore. So I am using a new tool called Audio pen. It is really fantastic. I love I talked about on my show on my other show of will swear I talk about the use of technology as a stroke survivor as somebody who used to work in technology and work in the web. I'm familiar with these tools, but they really I think not only turning 40 This last year and kind of moving to that next phase of life I've realized that you know my resistance sometimes as a stroke survivor was kind of I had the wrong mindset like I was stuck in my old mindset because I was so used to being able to do everything and do things at the speed with which I used to do them that is no longer the case but I'm starting to realize that getting more comfortable with it. Like I said a lot of changes in my life so I mean this episode I am recording audio and video the video probably won't be great on this episode because I just have so many things catch you up on so many notes so many things to talk about. Again, really been focused on survivors and working with survivors and building that podcasts because I know firsthand when I had my stroke 2019 beginning of 2020 all before COVID There were not a lot of great resources for me. I wasn't you know, there are a few there were some books some people sharing their stories, but just I mean there's really honestly there's so many like we got a regular day but there's definitely nobody like me when it comes to stroke survivors so I I want to help others who are trying to figure it out to know maybe, you know, I've just gone through something serious, also young stroke survivors, because I think a lot of times, the world society and even therapy therapists teams are so used to stroke survivors being, you know, 50s 60s 70s, when they had those strokes, those people have a different focus and a different maybe goal, then somebody younger, in their 20s 30s 40s. And honestly, I've heard them as young as very young children, sometimes, I have a friend who works with the rehab facility that I used to go to and still go to as outpatient. Which has actually been another big thing in year, three and a half four for me is that I put a lot of time into my recovery. This year, in particular, with physical therapy and occupational therapy, it is not entirely necessary at this point, but it is, you know, there's always maintenance, there's always work to be done. For me, it's about continuously getting better. You know, I'm 40, I never planned on having a stroke at 37. Nobody does that. It's a I mean, that would be wild that they did. But yeah, it's just, you know, I have certain goals and things that I want to get back to in a life that I'd like to get back as much as possible. And, you know, it's a process, it's a long, arduous process is not easy. It's not. If I had a choice, I would not pick it, I don't recommend it. That's what I talked about show God to because I never thought I'd be in a place where I'd have a stroke at 37. I think I've been very candid on this show. And certainly my other show that, you know, alcohol, drugs, when I was younger, just everything plays a part. But we all make decisions in life, some better than others. And I was certainly very good at both hiding the problems and masking the problems and talking my way out of the problems and not even believing myself, I had a problem. And to be fair, none of these things in particular played a major role in my stroke. But I think the culmination of poor decisions, health wise. You know, when I was the, I mean, doctors can't tell, I can't tell I think it just a lot of factors went into my stroke. Either way. The one thing that became clear to me last year was that I'm going to be a survivor the rest of my life, whether I like it or not. So I have two options, I could really embrace it and lean into it even more, which I think I have. But also share that journey and that knowledge with other people, whether they're younger or older. I think it's applicable either way, I just happen to be in the middle of survivors, you know, there are 10 million plus stroke survivors in the US. There's millions worldwide. The more I thought about it, the more I was like yep, podcast, get into video, build a community, you know, and that's slowly but surely coming together. I don't think we're there yet by any stretch, but it is getting there. And if I can help share my story. So others who are helping family members, friends, family, you know, maybe they're the survivor themselves. Maybe there's a family and from those who do noses survivor, they could spread the word they could, you know, hopefully gain some knowledge from mine. I never claimed to be an expert. I don't even know what an extra stroke. So Ira would look like. That's certainly never been my vibe. Didn't really I just want to share, I just share my story. And hopefully it helps somebody certainly can't hurt you to hear another opinion. That's one of the biggest things I've learned in my recovery. Like everybody has an opinion. Some are valid, some are helpful, some meanwell but aren't helpful. And yeah, I think we just did the whole thing. But that is not the topic of this podcast is episode 37. It is kind of a reconnect with everybody who has listened to this show throughout the years. And it really is, you know, I'm really interested in getting back to doing this show because I think it is a fun creative outlet for me. I don't have to be as serious as I am with by survivor show. Because this is just fun. It's dumb. It's silly. It's fun is stupid. It's all the things I love comedians, I love comedian podcasts I love. You know, comedy has always been a big part of my life. This is I'm not a comedian by trade. I honestly I don't even think about money. I think I just, you know, I see the world in a different way sometimes. And I feel like a lot of people have a unique perspective. And I don't I love people watching i love observing the world. I think that has only been exacerbated by my experiences in the last five years with the loss of my parents. Having a stroke, having ms going through the pandemic, raising three kids, my daughter is turning 21. In a couple of months, my younger boys are seven and nine, they are hilarious. My wife is deaf, many of you know. And now I am also a parent who is a stroke survivor, living with MS raising three kids with a wife that is deaf. And that is only scratching the surface on who I am and what I'm about. So yeah, I think it's time to bring this show back, bring it back with a little bit of structure each week. Have it more focused in terms of, you know, different segments, I am going to retitle the show a little bit I'm gonna call it boy idiot fired up addition, I think those who know me well, throughout my whole life, or even if you've only known me for probably 10 minutes, do you know I am at my best when I'm fired up. And I am excited. And I am jovial and low, low and having fun. And just laughing at the polarity of life and the stupid shit that happens in the world around us. This show will probably get me in trouble with YouTube. At some point, hopefully not. And I just have so many thoughts, and I haven't done an episode in 11 months. So you can imagine I have fired up on a number of topics. I don't even know where to scratch the surface on today's episode. But yeah, I think general format going forward is going to be you know, every week we'll do a little introduction, a little chit chat. Then we'll dive into three things that really I'm fired up about the particular week, you know, the topics will vary based on what's going on in the world and in my life. Hey, you know, I can preach about my kids for 45 minutes to an hour every week. That probably will be the main topic every week. Yeah, but let's see. Let's open up some notes because I have so many notes. Yeah, again, reintroduction for our long hiatus. What's been up the last? So I've been wanting to start this podcast for the last two months because I in my notes I have what's been up for the last nine months. And now we're on to I haven't done new episodes in 11 months. So yeah. Again, this is the show coming back. It is a reintroduction. We're going to do video and audio podcast. Like I said the YouTube content is planned. The video probably will come out a couple of days later. From the audio each week. You'll see people like watching YouTube in the background I do I do that at night when I'm doing a little work on the computer. Watching the kids hanging out upstairs, that kind of thing. I am an asshole. I have an upstairs and downstairs office. As you can see behind me. I am starting to kind of set up the upstairs studio a little bit more. The dev stairs studio is still a work in progress. So we'll see how that goes over the coming months. But yeah, just sharing my thoughts on the new podcast format. If you have any suggestions, questions, topics, you all know you can hit me up on any social media. A lot of my handles are think lovable. I will get into why that is. Well, in a couple minutes I will talk about right now. So I have three brands lovable Gizelle lovable solutions, and yeah. Okay, and do podcast level at that level of Survivor. My son actually wants to do a third podcast that is in the works. We'll see if we're do a father son Podcast coming up. Also got another thing planned. Some of the things are changing so lovable Gazelle last year started as a brand and a clothing brand that is kind of morphing a little bit because of a lot of reasons but that is a work in progress. Obviously level will add it is now back lovable server has been started. I started that at beginning of the year. And that has really, I've got that in a place that is rolling pretty good. It's never going to be perfect. You know, but I realized the sooner I can get my content and information out there and start helping people who are really I would say it's geared towards younger survivors, but it's not, you know, I'm not excluding older survivors, especially those that want to take an active role. I'm always super impressed. When I meet other stroke survivors locally that are of an older than me, certainly and they're really taking their recovery very serious. They put a lot of work into it. Some are retired so they just have the time But some are more like me and they just, they're probably going to still work for a good number of years and they just have to maintain their physical, physical and emotional health and maintain it and adjusted and really kind of lead into Yeah, building a living a fulfilled life. And again, it's not easy and that's part of the reason I share on that podcast. I think I want to do interviews both here and there. A nice huge interview show. I never have been, I think on this particular podcast, it's only ever been me and my sister who came on early on like 2021 Maybe it's 20 Yeah, might have been 2020 but ya know, it's definitely 21 But yeah, I like the idea of doing guests whether that's remote or in person. The in person studio like I said, is being worked on downstairs. That's more for me and my children to do their stuff. However, you know, I may have guests there from time to time I'm really trying to get one of my one of my friends from therapy to work together with me on either the local survivor or a new variation geared towards stroke survivors. I'd love to do a podcast with a co host that is something I've been looking for years I have no I have done a great job over the last year of pretty much eliminating not intentionally but eliminating but separating myself from most people whether it was my choice or their choice Yeah, it's funny how life works so yeah, I know I'm rambling quite a bit but again, I have so many knows so many things that catch you up on like I said, three topics probably every week give or take introduction conclusion. The new hobby this year less woodworking but deadly back into it just not the level I used to be at just recently got into DJing you can check me out over on Mixcloud it is at level Gizelle is the my URL over there? Mixcloud COMM At lovable gazelle. Part of that think lovable because every time you think of the word love the Will you I want you to think of me. My shows my brands. Yeah, that's kind of the vibe over there. I like it. That's why I've always loved this show. I think lowboy is the absolutely perfect name for this show, because I am a 40 year old stroke survivor with Ms. Like I said with a wife who's deaf three kids, 21, seven, and nine. And yeah, I have had an interesting life thus far. And honestly, I hope it's a little less than shooting the next four years. So yeah, like you said, the studio is set up watching a lot of comedy and podcasting on YouTube. Some of my favorites are to Arizona cave to Vaughn. Who else Andrew Santi No, Nikki Glaser. She was watching the episode with them today. I love Whitney Cummings. She just wrote a book that I'm really into right now. I don't know when she wrote the book, but I just started reading it recently. I've been a fan of Whitney's for a long time. In fact, I did not even realize how close we were in age. And that she went to UPenn. Not far from where I grew up in Jersey. So yeah, always, always been a fan of Whitney's and cannubi ethics. She's outspoken. But also amazingly talented and just a great comedian. Yeah, love Burton. Theo. And as you said, you know, Tom Segura and that whole crowd. So yeah, but big on that football's back. I'm excited about that. Watch the game just last night. Not not a fan of the lions, but I was surprised as I'm sure most of us were. But yeah I don't dislike the chiefs. I'm not the biggest fan of chiefs fans. To be honest, it's less about the chiefs and more about their fans. But I do not dislike them as much as I dislike the Cowboys. That was always a thing I hate to cowboys a cowboy fans. I think I speak for all giant fans. And my boys back home who also are Giants fans, except for one friend who's still a jet fan. Gosh, do I hope that Aaron Rodgers who I? But not really I mean, he seems like a cool guy again. I like Aaron Rodgers. I like how he's outspoken. I honestly just don't like Packer fans, I really despise jet bands. So I wish them well of course, you know anybody buying the NFL deserves and I hope gets a chance to play in the Super Bowl winner Super Bowl. I know we can't all or they can all but you know, they are playing hard, but it's just those Giants fan growing up my whole life. I didn't go to jet skis, but I just cannot get into the Jets. Tonight, we have one friend who I think to this day is my only friend who likes to jets and I really don't want I really don't want him to have Super Bowl because it'll just be pure gold. But due to the Jets credit, all those players are playing just as hard as every other player and team in the NFL. So it wouldn't be the worst. It would just suck for all my friends who are mostly giant fans. To have to deal with our one buddies a jet band, getting that subrule but to be very probably deserves it to draw all the years of taking she 25 plus years of taking shit from his friends. Yeah, cuz there's a friend that goes all the way back to freshman year of high school. So yeah. Anyways, Football season is upon us. It is exciting. It is exciting to be back. Doing this show I am pumped. Yeah, like I said revival of the show. I don't want to get into a full episode. But I'm trying to think of some things that are firing me up, or more recently. So many topics I want to talk about that I'm debating whether or not I should talk about them. And I didn't, I made a ton of notes. But I didn't do an outline for this podcast, which is a new thing I'm doing specifically with local survivor that I think is I'm taking all the things that I've learned this last year, and I knew all along. But I never really last time around with this show. I didn't build systems, I didn't have things in place. I didn't really take it as seriously as I should have a life think I wanted to I just didn't probably because when I started, I was still working full time, or web dev. And then, you know, I still I've acted in a very active recovery from the stroke back then. Things have obviously gotten a lot better. I'm running kind of almost full time. Like I spend like three to four hours a day working out running on top of all the other things I do. So yeah, like I said, I'm big hobby this year that is inspiring me is DJing shout out to my boy Marty, who is somebody I used to work at web dev with. He and I go back to 2019 he joined web dev and you know, he's I don't even think I knew it. For the first year we work together. But it wasn't till later that I found out he was into DJing. Really. And I didn't realize how much we had in common there. But yeah, he's been really shut up Marty, to to all your help last couple weeks, last couple months. And really I enjoy our conversations and chatting. He's super helpful. Yeah, check him out. He's on SoundCloud. I think I follow him i Yeah, maybe I'll put a link in the show notes if he wants a really interesting demo or conversations with him around DJing and the techniques and like, it's actually a really complicated thing. And for those who don't know, I actually tried to DJ a little bit in college. Now I'm 40. Back then I was $20 age and even back then it doesn't feel like a lifetime ago. But I can't say it was a lifetime ago because really, vinyl was like the way to DJ back then. I mean, I think it was the very early days of like just moving away from vinyl to digital. And I don't even really remember being a thing. But I also was so involved in Miami and the club scene and going out and partying and drinking drugs and all that stuff that had never even occurred to me to take DJing seriously, I then later wound up working doors at various clubs. Kind of getting into bartending. Never really thought back to DJing again for the longest time, which is weird because in hindsight music has really been a pretty big part of my life. For most of my life I just I play piano and like instruments when I was a kid, but never took it serious could never I wanted to play guitar so bad as a kid but I could just never wasn't one thing I couldn't get into. And I don't think I put enough effort into it. But I also just wasn't very good at it. The coordination like the moving of the hands and the neck of the guitar with the strings of things in the ads, was a pretty coordinated big guy before my stroke before the MLS. Now, I certainly can't do it play guitar, although, you know, you'd be surprised. But I really love DJing. And I think I've just I've been part of that EDM dance music world since the 2000s, really. And so, almost, I mean, it's obviously been around longer, but I worked Ultra, three or four, in Miami. And I went to Ultra and I was a part of Miami clubs for a long time in various forms. And it never really occurred to me to get back into DJing. And I think now it's such easy. It's an easy hobby by any stretch, but it's a nice creative outlet. There's a lot of things to it if you've been around music, but really, I don't know, for me, it's just different. It's part of who he was. Okay, that's cool, I should get back into that. And I have, and I'm particularly seriously learning a lot. You can see over here, I have a small DJ controller. And yeah, this one is particularly small, it's a pioneer of LX four, just kind of a small, beginner machine. But it's also pretty powerful for what you can do. I mean, it's not the level of some CD days, but it's certainly a good solid piece of equipment for entry level and to do enough to, you know, it's a good price point for me to get back into it and start taking it seriously. And I could quickly see if I want to go up and to the next year, and really take it to the next level and start doing gigs or No, I just wanted it to be a hobby. I mean, that's cool. Not every hobby has to become a business, which is something I've learned a lot over the last 10 years. Like I get into something, I get into it very intensely. And I started to occur to me, which you know, it sounds silly to say but like, yeah, not every hobby has to be a business. But every business should be fun. And sometimes we're good at a thing. And just because we're good at it, and we can help people. It's great. It's an amazing thing to have all those things connect is amazing. But sometimes they don't like with my coaching business, I sold out because I was burnt out, I was tired. I was like, I'm exhausted. I have like my own family. I do want to really work more with survivors and take that seriously. But I'm also trying to be a much more serious creator. And I'm thinking like, I love helping stroke survivors. And I will always be a survivor. And I wanted to be part of my business. But like I have multiple businesses because sometimes I'm we're in this mood, and sometimes I'm one that mood and you hear people always focus, they're so focused on one thing, that they're not enjoying life, they're not having fun, they're not having a good time, they're making money, but they're not building something that is meaningful or fun or enjoyable, really. And so you know, some people like to have a business and a hobby, or a business and multiple hobbies. I have multiples of both. I like to have businesses there's no, I've never felt so compelled. Just do one thing for so long. I mean, I guess that's why working with survivors speaks to me, because I know how hard it is. I know I can help people. I would never say that I'm a stroke expert by any means. But I think I have certainly learned a lot and could certainly share my journey with other people and share things that I have learned that maybe I wish I knew sooner that I wish I heard sooner from other people because I think when you're a survivor, and I hate to get on this track, because I know that's a separate show. But like, I just tried to give you the example where I'm at with things is like I want to be able to help those people and help them deeply but there's not always a need. Like hopefully there isn't one day like I joke a lot on that show about the magic pill and now stroke survivors you know, we're always looking for that magic pill that solution and I don't think it's unique to stroke survivors. I think everybody in life is kind of looking for that thing. Either helps him or just whenever something comes up, it's like well, I wouldn't I do that sooner because that's actually a helpful thing. And so, ultimately it would be Amazing if the wave if science ever gets to a point where like, somebody who has a stroke could potentially reverse the effects. I mean, wishful thinking, I think because it's just too complex, and there's a lot to it. But yeah, ultimately, I think for me, it's about helping people sharing the journey. Building that content is evergreen content, it is always going to be helpful. Because I think, unfortunately, there's always going to be stroke survivors. Throughout the world, I would hope people eventually were in a place worldwide where like, they're not. But there's also there are also plenty of people I've met, who have had strokes from the most random thing, or the most random reason, like, I'll give you an example, I knew somebody who had a stroke in the hospital, because they were, they were older, they were nearing retirement, there was an older woman who just wanted to like, she'd always disliked her nose. So she wanted to get rhinoplasty, which I think at a certain age, you just deserve to do whatever you want with your body, your life and your money. And like, you know, it's a fairly routine procedure for what I know. Nobody thinks they're gonna go in and have a little nose job done, and one of having a stroke, but she did. And that's unfortunate, because I just, that's not somebody that was trying to do any harm, or really wasn't doing anything wrong to themselves and just one bad, lived a pretty good life up to that point. done all these things, worked her whole life, just wanted to do this thing for herself. Later in life later in her career, supportive husband, routine procedure, and the poor lady has a stroke in the hospital, from a nose job. Like that's just insane. I mean, that. That's just cruel, if I'm being honest, but like, yeah, so I don't think we'll ever able to eliminate stroke from the world. But yeah, the eliminating the unnecessary stroke. I mean, I think 80% of strokes they say, are preventable, i, that is a little skewed to me if it gets more like 5050 either way. Yeah, I mean, it would be great to be in a world where there was a magic pill. And it was radical and rebuilt, we're preventing them. But, you know, I think the world is always gonna need some help in that area. So again, I'm doing that show, primarily to help survivors, I'm always going to be a survivor. I'm always going to be trying to get better myself. And I do talk about it on this show. I will not talk about it in future episodes nearly as much. Maybe I mentioned here or there. But, you know, that is clear that that needs to be a separate show and is and so yeah, with this podcast again, every week, it'll be me fired up about, you know, three or four topics I'm not gonna put a lot of pressure on it is a bunch show. creative outlet. I'm going to talk about all sorts of things from a daughter who's turning 21 in a couple months with a boyfriend who might. Yeah, don't get me started. I'm the one getting myself started and worked up because I'm only talking to myself on this podcast and just happen to be recording it into the camera. Gear. Nobody prepares you to be a 40 year old stroke survivor, with MS with a wife whose death 21 year old daughter, a nine year old boy and a seven year old boy, my house is wild. Wild and I don't even really leave my house anymore. Yet, it's not surprising that more people have I don't know if it's me or the people around me. But I've sort of distanced myself from a lot of people in my life. Not intentionally. I think it just happens with age. And I just get busy. And as much as I love I think that's why I do this show because I kind of reconnect with people and we don't have to talk one to one or I don't have to text 10,000 times a day. It's just Yeah. Never a dull moment in my life. Yeah, but nobody prepares you for fatherhood and having a daughter in college with a boyfriend and for all the joking you know, I really can't believe I'm gonna get fired up about this. I've got I was trying not to get too far into an episode. This particular show but Yeah, nobody prepares you if you're a father and you're a friend of mine and you are younger or even if you're older and you have a daughter who is not yet in her 20s man it is hard. It is painful. Watch it is painful to be a part of. I you know, I've come a really long way in the last four years since my stroke recovery, I think I'm kinder to the world and people around me, I'm more understanding, but I still have a little bit of trouble not being an asshole sometimes. And I have thoughts. I have so many thoughts. I think everybody knows my thoughts on. Well, as we all know, I lost my parents few years ago, I have always been pretty candid about my family in law that has really gotten it's gotten better, but I still talk a lot of smack. Mostly about the people that are closest to me, which is really unfortunate for the people closest to me because they start distancing themselves. And that's probably why I find myself distancing myself but also them distancing themselves from me. Or Yeah, interesting. But yeah, I, it's hard. It's hard y'all to be a father with a college student. It is expensive. It is a pain in the ass, and nobody prepares you for it. And you know, I'm not an idiot. I went to college totally 20, less than 20 years ago, I was still in school. And, you know, I remember what it's like, I remember what I was doing. I was doing much worse than my daughter. But yeah, I've always struggled with this. Even with my sisters who were dating, or my friends or girls that were dating. I never seem to really like the guy. The other guys in the lives of my friends, and especially my daughter. Yeah, and I'm gonna say that on the podcast, I don't like him. I'm very adamant about that. Yeah, now, I'm just telling you to all of YouTube and every podcast app out there. But yeah, that is a painful process. I think other dads would agree with me. I would love to talk to other dads who also don't like their daughters choices in life when it comes to boys. It's not the worst choice it died on. Yeah, I mean, I guess it's a father. You know. You get what you get. You don't get you know, in life, we get to pick our friends you can decide whether he will stick around or stay or go or come or go. Unfortunately, when it's your child or your friends, you know, you guide only so much and they listen only so much. I guess it comes down to pick your battles. I mean, I don't care enough to like really make a big deal, but I'm just annoyed on a regular basis in my house. That's probably because my house is never quiet. is one of the rare times it is quiet in the house where I'm recording. And that's because I'm a maniac and I just die I am yeah, I am over it. I'm annoyed that it's raining and the air conditioning is on that was as we speak. But yeah, other than that, it's pretty good for change. So yeah, anyways, I know I'm getting a little fired up and I hate to do that at the end of the episode, but I think we're gonna leave it there for this episode. Again, I am restarting the show. I would say I'd like to be on a weekly cadence starting next week. You know, give me a week or two to get things ironed out a little bit. Thanks for watching, I hope I hope you're well I want to hear from everybody. If you want to email the show. I have no sponsors yet so anything like that? No sponsors right now. Just kind of relaunching re getting back into this particular show. You can email we will elope lady and if got any topic suggestions, questions, things you want me to tell you about want to be a guest. I'd love to chat. So as you got interesting stories, things going on. Things you think you know, I think this is not real and obviously not a comedian. I'm just a stroke survivor who has lived a pretty interesting life with a lot of interesting stories. I love sharing my life I love getting fired up about things I think that's why I'm calling that this show fired up is because I've definitely had my best when I'm fired up pissed off angry, emotional, you name it. That is when foot trouble kind of love about my big level blasts. So yeah, we'll leave it there for episode 37 of the libertarian podcast. My name is Will Schmierer Thanks for joining bye for now. Hello