Hey he quick couple of updates before we hop into Episode 42 of this week's lovable idiot podcast. Sorry, I'm late. Been busy running. I just finished my now 12th marathon and 14 days. So it is Saturday night up and watching football been running all day. I was really fired up yesterday when I was recording this episode. So you will definitely see that come across. I was just in a mood. It was a week. It was a Friday. It started off as a Monday and it just felt like every day thereafter of the week was a Monday. Very Groundhog's Day. Anyways, everything is better things are feeling I'm feeling good. Obviously, the podcast I'm on fire because I was just super fired up yesterday, I just was not in the mood for bullshit. And you will definitely hear a lot of that little bit more language than usual. I've been pretty good about this year since reviving the podcast, but yeah, the jersey comes out of me. So good episode. Lots of it's not really whining. It's definitely you know, we all have those weeks, right? You think everything's good. You try to prepare, you try to have contingencies, this and that. And yeah, it was just one of those weeks, I guess, really, you know, off the deep end, but I just don't have a high tolerance. I've never had a high tolerance or level of patience for bullshit and excuses. This week was no different. It just seems like it was coming from every direction every which way. birthday week in our house, I was unaware that we were doing birthday weeks in our into our 40s. Y'all hear me complain a lot about that. Try to think what else we talked about on the podcast. Something I don't know if I got to but careful what you wish for ladies. For anybody out there dating or anybody has advice for younger women who have not yet married. Everybody thinks they want somebody that is a tall guy and six foot five or over. I can tell you I'm six, eight. I have a lot of friends six, four and over. None of us are very good at being pushovers or putting up with bullshit. So if you want one of those husbands, you're going to have to look at six three and under I'm pretty certain about that. I'm sure all my friends that are six four and over would agree. Anyways, it's Saturday at eight and Clemson and my airplane. Miami is route testing my patience very much right now at the end of the evening. Anyways, I hope you enjoy this episode. I had a great time recording it I was a little fired up. I'm also very tired from running all the time lately. So enjoy episode 42 of the mobility podcast My name is Schmierer Welcome back to another episode of Lovelady. A podcast today is episode 42. And I'm fired up this week. Week it has been a hell of a week. It started off with a rough Monday that continued throughout this week. Today is Friday I'm exhausted, just ran six miles less to talk about what a bitch about loves to be fired up about so excited and exhausted all at the same time. Some things we're going to be talking about this week are why I'm late again on recording this episode of the podcasts I've been behind across the board this entire week. Yeah, a lot of running a lot of marathons we'll get into that. A lot of unsolicited opinions across the board in my life, probably in yours as well. What else are you guys talking about? Let's Can we stop with the birthday week's Holy shit. Do I have a story for you this week? So tired of birthday week's birthday? I don't know what I hate more birthday week's astrology. Nonsense, unsolicited bullshit. I just don't have the patience anymore. I was talking to joking with my daughter the other day or last night. I think like, I am a stroke survivor. Y'all know that. I think we all go through a lot of things in life. But there just comes a point and I think it's when I always thought it was Gen X. Oh, that's the other thing. Yeah. Birthday weeks. People blame things on generations like Gen Z Gen Y. Millennials, Gen X boomers, whatever, like astrology. It's all bullshit. It's so honestly the world is just full of it. Different kinds of people. Some people are brilliant, some people are idiots. It's better when people know their place in the world. I think this makes things easier. But yeah, just say I'm fired up would be putting it lightly this week. And I'm sorry, my timer from running is still going for some reason. So let's hit pause on that, because I'm obviously not running at the moment. Um, yeah, so welcome to episode 42. Again, I'm late this week, because I've been running a ton. I do want to touch on that briefly, because I feel like it's important. Um, you know, I have been very candid, especially on my other show, I hated running my whole life. Honestly, I still hate runners. If I'm being quite honest, this is the show where I am honest. And I tell you the truth. Because I believe running is a good activity, I believe you can. After hating it for 39 years, you can enjoy running. And I have some thoughts, tips, tricks, you know, maybe if you're curious, you can go listen to my other show. But really think if you can find, I think, yeah, what am I trying to say here? You don't have to love running. You don't have to be 39 kind of get into running. But I think the lesson is, if you think you eat something your whole life, you might and you could probably still do. But I think opinions and thoughts and the motivations change as you get older. So I just yeah, I've really taken to running over the last year, I've found what works for me. To put it lightly. Or to put it succinctly I think it's that I have found a way to like running because I go slow. I enjoy it, it gives me I'm seeing a lot of benefits. And I was talking to another friend she got into Pilates recently and has found a similar path with Pilates for her that I've found with running. And I think we're both surprised in to be finding these things in our later 30s. Now and 40 say I mean I went from 500 pounds hating running that cigarette smoker, alcoholic hot mess, to having a stroke, getting diagnosed with MS. And just you know, eventually, on this journey to recovery, I have fallen in love with running, but not in a weird way. Not in let me run a race all the time. Like I don't want to sign up for races. I do believe if running a race is something you want to do, do it. If you know I liked the idea that running races often raise money for charities. I like that as well. But I just don't need that extra added pressure of time. I'm not trying to beat anybody in a race. I'm just trying to run my own race. As corny as it sounds. I do believe that like I ran 10 marathons in the last 12 days now. It's a lot of miles. I'll be honest, I crossed 4000 miles are there this week for the year. And I feel good. I feel honestly today I just ran this morning I ran a quick six miles starting to feel a little bit in the glutes. So I don't know if they need to be strengthened. Probably they probably need a little bit of a break. But yeah, I just think that as you get older you realize, do I really hate a thing or is it something else that is contributing to the dislike? I think for me again, I talked about this on my other show but a lot of a lot of my issues with running were around breathing and not breathing properly through my nose. Which to be honest, I didn't know you could unblock your nose I didn't realize I had such issues there so when I really learned to breathe last year with better nasal breathing, less mouth breathing it it really opened up my eyes and it allowed me to obviously not smoking cigarettes helps a ton to contribute to wanting to run being encouraged to run out now being told that I'm running too much which I don't know. You get people on my life know this like pick one you get, you get 100% Will or you get 0% Well, and that is honestly the theme of this week's podcast. Yeah, actually, that kind of leads right into unsolicited opinions. I just ah, what am I thinking about what I'm thinking about until so many people give you their opinions like doctors, medical professionals, my wife, my family, they all listen, nobody said shit when I was drinking 20 Ice House beers a day, a bottle of vodka or two per week at five Red Bull EVOC is like nobody was saying a word forever. They just I knew what I was doing. I turned my own blind eye. I'm not insane. I'm not. I just thought I would fix the problem. And I thought the problem wasn't really a problem. If I'm being honest, because I was maintaining the status quo. For what I thought you needed to do in adulthood, I was taking care of my family. I had a job I worked. I did my job. I did it. Well. Yeah. I definitely got comfortable. And I figured out a way to drink all the time. And yeah, really. It took us all on my body. I mean, obviously, to have a stroke at 37. It definitely did some things. But nobody gave me unsolicited advice then. But now that I've fixed a lot of things, and there are still things to fix. I'm not saying I've got it all figured out. I do not mean that that is not what I'm saying. What I'm saying is I've learned to listen, keep an open mind. Think about things. And you know, I realized I know what I don't know what I don't know. And I there's always something to learn something to gain. I don't care if you're watching TV, you're watching a podcast, you're watching YouTube. Like there's something you can learn from everything. Even if it's small and insignificant, you may never know when you need that piece of information. Just like books, I do think if you're going to read book after book after book after book after book, yeah, you should apply some of those lessons and things to your life. But I don't think there is a lot of people will tell you well, if you read 100 books, and you don't apply any information, I don't buy that. I just think sometimes for some people, you can read hundreds, even 1000s of books, and sometimes you don't need that information till you need that information. But I think what, what really spurred this two cents thing is like, what's going on in the world right now, like the situation in Israel? This is driving me crazy. Obviously, I think it goes without saying everybody across the world understands what's gonna, you know, has some idea of what's going on. I don't think we need to hear from everybody on their opinions and that they stand with Israel and blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, like, honestly, I want to hear from the people. I don't stand with Israel, because I believe the majority of the world stands with, you know, is on the humane side is understanding is compassionate, like you don't need to tell me that you stand with this person or that person. This is it's not exclusive to Israel, it just happens to be the thing going on right now. It's kind of like the Ukraine, like, Does anybody think that is just I mean, I don't know, if you feel like you need to say something, that's fine. I just feel like there's a lot of people saying it. And I'm just like, nobody cares. Like, I'm not waiting for people's opinions or official statements on specific events around the world that most of us cannot control. Obviously, if it's bad, I think we can give the benefit of the doubt that we all condone, or don't condone those actions. And yeah, it's just there's a lot of things that I have I have, I have two signs fatigue, I guess. I generally want to hear from people that genuinely mean it like what do I mean? Like yesterday? I'll give my daughter as an example. Again, she's like, do you need to run a marathon? I was like, No, you're right. Long story short, I didn't I wound up running a marathon yesterday to but I didn't and I couldn't cut it short. And I there was some things going on. Which leads me into the next thing, birthday weeks. It's somebody's birthday week in our house and it's not mine. It's not Ali's it's not Santiago's it's not Willie's. So that only leaves one person's birthday to be the head this week. It's my wife. I love her. But this is ridiculous. We've been married 11 years we've been together 13 almost 14 years. You don't get a birthday week after 21. Okay. 21 is the absolute last cut off for a birthday week. Okay, can we all agree that that is a reasonable factual statement? I don't even think you should have been. But I agree that everybody has their own take and their own opinions about their birthday. But I cannot handle it. I am 40 My wife is not younger than me. So do the math there. Do your boy math girl maths of water. Tiktok math you want to do, however you add it up. She's not younger than me. So she did not turn 40 this week. I think, you know, after 21 You, you can have a little bit of a celebration for 30 Hell, I'll even give it 3540 4550 Then I think we go to 60 7080. And that sets kind of it right. Like, it's there are milestones to celebrate. And you can celebrate however you want. Let's be clear about that. But I'm not orchestrating some fucking parade. Like it is a goddamn national holiday. This is not the Macy's Parade. I don't care who you are, what you do, or what you think you deserve in life. And this is not specific to my wife. This is just birthdays in general. Enough Enough, like, I got other things to do. I didn't survive a stroke to put up with bullshit for birthdays. Like, I gotta be honest, like, I'm just fired up today. I don't know if it's because it's Friday. It's because I'm late. It's because I had way too much running going on way too much time to think about topics. I've been trying to run to get less fired up, and I just keep getting more fired up. Just like I keep saying I'm gonna cut back on miles. And I keep running more miles. It's it's kind of ridiculous at this point. I would agree. But I just like, I can't take it. I cannot take it. Yeah. Again, I'm tired of people's two cents. And I, again, it's all within context. If it's if it's irrelevant. If it's you're trying to bring a bullet point, you're having a conversation where it becomes a thing. I'm sure bring it up, talk about it. Again, I'm bringing up Israel right now. I don't have a lot of strong opinions there. I just obviously don't condone any of the actions going on. That's all I'm gonna say about it. Because nobody gives a shit what I think about it. And nobody really wants to hear my two cents on it. If we're being honest. Like, it's just, it's a thing. I'm aware of it. That's it. But yeah, it just seems like and here's the other thing. The other end is unsolicited advice. Again, nobody gave me their unsolicited advice when I was busy being an alcoholic cigarette smoker, basically ruining my, my body and my life to a pretty significant degree. And everybody, once I had my stroke and I was in a wheelchair, I was like you got to walk you got to figure out how to walk better. You got to figure out how to maybe get into running, exercise more did all those things. I didn't need anybody to tell me that I just couldn't do it as fast as they were talking. It took my body time to heal to have time for my brain to heal time for my whatever rewiring happened during the first couple years and still continues to happen. Like it just takes time. I can't speed it up. Believe me I would have and people are not aware of that. That is why I do the other podcast to help educate people that have gone through stroke people that have family members with a stroke. With Ms. gone through a significant life event. There are no roadmaps, the roadmaps are all very wildly different person to person, when he's just the same. But yeah, so again, it was unsolicited advice people. So anyways, now I get into running two and a half years into my stroke recovery. And I'm really enjoying it and I wish so badly in hindsight that some of these things stuck. And took prior to the stroke, obviously, of havoc that goes without saying because if I had been running at that rate, I probably would have been in better shape, I may still have had a stroke to be quite honest. Because I if I if I got into running and I did those things, but I was still smoking or drinking a lot. It wouldn't have solved the root cause or the root of the problem. And so there are some things that still could have contributed but I think I would have been giving myself a much better shot. To probably avoid the stroke as certainly at age 37. But yeah, I just I just I have no patience for unsolicited advice. I have no patience for bullshit. I have no patience for excuses. I think we all have excuses sometimes for ourselves, I'm a little bit okay with that. If it's within reason we have it's infrequent. If it's, you know, once in a blue moon II, I think we all have ups and downs, highs and lows across the board in life. And I think that's okay. As long as it doesn't become a pattern, and you're not lying to yourself over and over and over, and you kind of either figure it out, seek out help to help dig yourself out of that, you know, that spot, whatever that is, like, if you're struggling with working out, you want to work out, just like my friend who was talking about Pilates. She's found a thing that's kind of working and sticking and she's enjoying it. And I think that again, that's something I've found with running now. And here's the other thing. Now people are like, again, I'm running too much. What am I like, it's my body's not breaking down, like I'm a little sore today. I may have been pushing it a little bit for the last two weeks. You know, but that's my decision. And I'm not gonna push it to the point where I tear a hamstring or a I mean, I gotta be honest, my glutes hurt a little bit. But no worse than not like a leg day. And here's the other thing people are now like, oh, you need to lift weights, motherfucker. Yeah, probably, but also like, again, I'm six foot eight 325 pounds, I can pick you up and throw you across the room without even worrying about it. I don't really need to lift weights, I think it would help. I think I do want to I think I am trying to dial in the diet right now. And I think once that set continues on and the running continues, or I pull back a little on running, and incorporate lifting weights, but like, what do I need to lift weights for? For you? Or my bodybuilding? Am I a competitive bodybuilder for you? Like what what is the advantage for you to tell me to lift weights like, again, I'm not saying it's wrong. And I'm not saying I don't want to do it. But I'm already like, much bigger than the average human. I just don't understand when people need, like, feel the need done with things like that. It's just, it's wild. And I think we all experienced this in some way. I just I don't know, it's got me off track here. But I just I don't understand. It's like how much how much. So what I need to be 683 25 and I need to look exactly like Thor from Iceland, the World's Strongest Man like, I mean, all for it. I've done a lot of dumb things in my life. I've been a competitive eater. I've done stupid challenges. I've drank a gallon of orange juice in five minutes, I drink a gallon of milk in five minutes. You know, like I could do all these things. In a five pound burrito, I got my name on a plaque at a bar in Miami. Like I could do stupid things. I could do things that don't make sense because I'm physically large human. But it's just it's just I don't know what the point is. Yeah, I'm just can we go back to birthday weeks? Yeah, I think if you're I don't know. I'm just having a tough time with this this week. Because I do I love my wife very much. But like, I'm not in the mood for this. Like, again. I guess I I know. I am a person of reason and logic. And that's fine. My wife is the opposite. That's why we are a great team. We make a great pair or a great couple. We don't argue about a lot of things. And I think about things and I'm like, why are we arguing about birthdays? And it's like, I get it but I also don't. And here's my other thing. We're old enough. We've been married long enough. Like if you want to do a thing for your birthday, that's okay. You deserve that you can have that I will give it to you. I will make your dreams and wishes come true. I will try my hardest. But if you don't ask you don't get and I think that is a piece of advice that is a solid piece of advice across the board. Whatever you do, whether you're working for yourself where they're working for somebody else, you don't ask for the business. You don't get the business. You don't ask for that promotion, don't get the promotion don't advocate for yourself. You just you don't ask you don't get and I think it took me a long time to realize that. And I think many people who will probably experienced this as well will agree like yeah, occasionally somebody will reach out. But again, you don't ask for sponsorship, you don't get sponsors, you don't make the ask it's hard for people to know you want or need. You know, when it comes to working with brands or different companies or, again, even just clients like you don't ask somebody like, yeah, they might find you on the internet, they might on social media on Google, like people are able to find businesses. But like, more often than not, you've got to ask, or at least start the conversation, I think. And that's. Yeah, it's just a weird thing that there's some sort of weird expectations that came out this week. And it's just weird. Honestly, I'm, like, stunned, which is probably why I'm talking about it. Yeah, it's just been a weird, weird as week and icing on the cake is this week, on top of all the ridiculous running over the last two weeks, multiple marathons. Again, I'm not running these marathon that I'm running. When I say marathons, I'm doing the total miles of a marathon per day, I'm not running an actual marathon race, because I think that is stupid. In my book, I don't need to run an actual race. I just do it here. Locally, in my neighborhood, running laps, if people think that's insane. That's what I like. That's how I enjoy it. I do a little indoor on the treadmill, sometimes depending on weather. But yeah, I just like I said, it's been a week. You know, I've overcome a lot of things in life. As we all do. The longer you live, the more you experience, the more you have challenges you're faced with, the more you overcome, the more you realize, oh, yeah, that thing that didn't make sense 20 years ago now makes sense. And it's just, I know. Just a really strange week, and on top of that, I've been some reason, no idea why because my parents passed away in June of 2018. So a little over five years now, but they have been on the mind all this week. I don't know if it's the start of the holiday season. Or some of this craziness going on around my house. My kids are getting older. But for some reason, I feel like I really been missing them this week, which is unusual, not something I've talked about a whole ton on this podcast, except for in the early days of the podcast. It was so pretty new on top of my stroke. So for those that don't know, I lost my parents in June of 2018. Tragically two, they were just out. Honestly, I just had this thought I think they were celebrating their 40th wedding anniversary, but they also might have just been taking a trip around that same time. It's the plan was to celebrate it as a family later in 2018, which never panned out because my parents sadly tragically lost their lives on a hike out in California Amboy California Amboy crater to be exact you can Google it if you're interested in this story. I think they are the last people that I'm aware of to have passed out they're really strange or really bizarre. And that was all before my stroke the year after. Before my MS diagnosis before really my life got flipped turned upside down not to quote Will Smith, but I'll quote Will Smith has also been thinking a lot about him this week. Because of all that running because I forget the exact quote and in fact, I'm going to try to look it up while we're chatting here on the podcast today. Give me a minute, Will Smith. Oh well, you should also know that I am in the process of officially hiring a producer for my shows because I need some help. I certainly can handle it but I think it would be great and I'm really looking forward to it. So in a couple of weeks I am going to start working with that producer for the last seven or eight shows of the year. And the Will Smith quote is relevant because I feel it in my bones with all the running lately. And again I'm not gonna get well shit about the Chris Rock thing. That was definitely a weird weird thing. I don't love that for either party. So I don't want to glaze over it but also again, does anybody really care what I think like I think it was a mistake. I think it was a bad moment. I really like Chris Rock I really like Will Smith. I wish it never happened. I yeah, I don't have too much more to say about that, but I do love this was my quote as so. I always enjoyed fresh prints as a kid growing up. That was a great show. I enjoyed Chris Rock, I don't think there's any reason to dislike either of what they have produced throughout their careers. But the quote, I'm not afraid to die on a treadmill, I will not be outworked period, you might have more talent than me, you might be smarter than me. You may be sexier than me. But if we, if we get on a treadmill together, there's two things that will happen. You're going to get out first or I'm going to die. And I really don't know why. I don't know why I resonate with that, quote so much because I see myself at the gym at in the neighborhood running every fucking day. At the gym, I see people come in, I see people go out Opsahl on the treadmill, doing this doing that. And yeah, I haven't lost hundreds of pounds. I mean, I guess I have at this point, I'm not the fastest, you're gonna you're definitely gonna beat me in any race, it's gonna take me all goddamn day because the running I'm doing is significant, but it is slow it is a stroke survivor running, which is very different than somebody that is did not have a neurological event where it affected or paralyzed part or half of their body. You know, and again, I was paralyzed on the right side of my body with the stroke and 2019 2020, early 2020 The MSX surely thereafter paralyzed the left side. So it was I was very messed up for a long time. You know, and it's still far from perfect. But that quote, just it was I think about it every goddamn day on on on that treadmill like you can do. I think that's why I get so annoyed about certain things with bullshit and the birthdays and the excuses. And that this and under that, like, man, if there are just so many more other things to be worried about so many other things to be taken care of. Like, it's not that you can't do this or that, but you got to speak up, you gotta say what you want. And you gotta you gotta go after what you want in the that to me. You know, I am getting a little soapbox here. But like, I just believe if you want it, you will get it. And if somebody if somebody can outwork me, God bless. I'm, like, good for you. But like, if I'm pushing you, and you're working harder than me, fuck it. Like, I mean, I'm working as hard as I can. To provide and, you know, in my eyes, you gotta you gotta work, you got to earn it, you got to work for it, you gotta, you gotta, you gotta have the drive, and you got to speak up on your behalf. And I know, it's getting a little distant from what I want to talk about this episode. But like, I don't know. I think that's why I have no patience for astrology, because astrology is fine. You know, just like birthdays are fine when you're, if you're a kid, and you're grown up, and you're under the age of, let's say, 21, you can celebrate all the birthdays you want, you kind of do whatever you want. You can ask for wild things you can, you know, under 21, you're essentially a child, like, you just don't know what you don't know. And part of growing up is learning and to understand those things. But at a certain age, you just things become less important in my mind. And again, nothing wrong with celebrating your birthday at any age. But you have to respect other people's time schedules, commitments, things they want to do, like I, I it's been a wild week, you know, and it's like, come on, like, this is not new. I've been working from home for 15 years now. And so I get frustrated sometimes because I bought what I thought was my dream house where I had all this space. And now it's like, shit maybe shouldn't be I should have bought a smaller house. And I should have just bought an office like a commercial office space for me. Because I think I didn't have the foresight to realize that at a certain point your kids get to a certain age where it's just hard, it's harder. It's never easier. You think it's going to be easier as they get older. It's just a different set of problems a different age. And having I think that's running has become my de facto default Office like I do most of my thinking and a lot of the music things I'm doing like a lot of that happens when I'm running. Because I can ask sometimes I cannot even think clearly in my own goddamn house. Part of that is a re shifting of this upstairs studio re shifting the downstairs office and studio so you know that I do. I am working on that's been a project for a little bit this year. But yeah, I don't know. I know I keep saying I don't know because I just don't know it's been a hell of a week. I wanted to do an episode because I've been behind. Oh, I know. I was sorry. I was talking about astrology and kids. Like you know, it's fine if kids talk about astrology. I think it's fun when you're a little kid to read your horoscope and kind of understand different things. I mean, again, if you want to be into it be into it. I just when people start blaming problems of the world on astrology, that's where I go. That's where I go immediately. No, no, thank you. I can't listen, you're done. I don't want to hear another word. You have to say, I can't believe you're talking to me. Let's end this conversation immediately. When people say like, oh, Gemini and Scorpio, they can't get together, you know? We're Mercury in Retrograde. I simply I could never stand like when something's going on. Now. It's not because Mercury's in retrograde is because you're a fucking idiot. is number one. And number two. Yeah, it's just again, that goes back to that. No patience, or no filter for bullshit. I mean, I just teach around. But yeah, her exhausting. Yeah. I don't know. It. Had one more interesting thought for this week in particular. So I just watched some miss Pat and Whitney Cummings podcasts. With Ms. Pat, which was a fantastic episode. Can I just say, I think the two greatest women to have the there's a half there's there's a lot actually. So two of my favorite female to my favorite comedians period are Miss Pat and Whitney Cummings. They just happen to both be females. I I fucking love Miss Pat. And it makes a lot of sense why Whitney does why Bert does why Tom does like I remember stats book a couple years ago, I remember talking about it on this podcast. She also came from a interesting background. And she just says like it is and I so love what she says like stop lying to your kids stop lying to yourself. Like if you suck at something, either figure out a way to get better or just stop that. You can move on to something else like it's such. I think what I liked about it was that she was giving. I think Whitney was asking for parenting advice from Miss Pat because it's the only person she wants to listen to for parenting advice, and I wholeheartedly agree with that. I don't know. I just I just it was such a treat to find that last I guess I was behind Whitney's podcast. I didn't realize the new episode we missed that came out. But I just I don't know. Go watch it. If if you're listening to this podcast, it is on YouTube. But you can also listen to it I'm sure on on all your podcast apps but yet I know what a treat Whitney Cummings and mishpat is a fantastic combination for our podcasts. I honestly I will say with that one together. I could listen to those who talked about life and things in general for till the end of time. Honestly. There are so many podcasts on Vanna, but that one in particular I think is is talking about two people who say like, say like it is and I just like I can't I can't. I can't say enough good things about mishpat and Whitney. Again, they're two of my favorites. absolute favorites, honestly. And it says she's Miss Patti windier. What I love about them is they are so real. So genuine so true to themselves. very self aware, cognizant of some choices that maybe weren't ideal, you know, and I always appreciate people that can recognize like, Hey, I'm just trying to live my life. I have these opinions, I those opinions, they may change over time. Just like I've had millions of thoughts. I've turned things around. Usually for the better, but I still make mistakes. I'm not beating myself up over it anymore. You know, I just I think that's true. When you do a podcast, whether you do it by yourself, you do it with guests, you know? Even things I say in the podcast sometimes like 10 minutes after like, Why did I say that? I don't even mean that, you know, and it's just I don't know. They both strike a chord with me because I think they always are genuine. They say what they mean. They sometimes say it incorrectly, because that's always as bad so great. She's always like, some people are a word that said like, I just I don't know. I take the both very much and it's I highly recommend it. So I'm just looking over my news and see I pulled up that quote and I lost my entire train of thought and outline for this. Yeah, so that's the other recommendation front this week, what else? What else? Big vague documentary on Netflix was has been interesting. I watched a little bit of that. As somebody who was a former cigarette smoker, I did switch to vaping. Towards the end. I don't really know where I stand on this topic, per se, except for I kind of agree with the premise of the documentary where Joule and companies like that, initially intended to make a product to help cigarette smokers wean off cigarettes, and I think it backfired. And my particular case, obviously, my thing whole thing panned out very differently than the most. So I can't give you a full assessment, but I think he was helping me get off cigarettes. And I don't know. I think you know, I stopped vaping period because of the stroke. And you know, I'm curious, would I have been able to get off the vaping completely? Or would I have just been vaping the rest of my life I think either way. The only thing I'll say there is that as somebody that smoke cigarettes, it was nice to get away from cigarettes. Again, my situation very different. Having the stroke getting diagnosed with MS. Just cutting out cigarettes and alcohol period of my life was kind of strangely easier after all that for me than it might have otherwise been. But But yeah, it's it's an interesting documentary. It's an interesting topic. I, yeah, I didn't really think of it from the other side being that I was a cigarette smoker. So it was just interesting to me. Let's see what else that's what I've been watching what football has been a football is kind of this week. Now like going on, talking about the birthday and my birthday. Back on Facebook, had like zero friends over there. It's just very strange to be back on Facebook, but I still prefer Instagram, Tik Tok or Twitter. We'll see what I do with Facebook. I'm kind of just puttering around and seeing if it's worth doing anything there or building out a page and just kind of considering it because of the other podcasts and Lobo Stryver where it is more stroke focused. I think the demographics and the the research points to more of my G more my desired audience is on over on Facebook, but I I've been having trouble with it. Because basically, it's like living in a world where you're surrounded by idiots. So that's very difficult for me, I have trouble being surrounded by idiots. I'm having trouble this week in my own house. Now just doing love or burning the house, love my family. It's it's like I said, it's been a week and And surprisingly, running more miles is not fixing the problem. So I am I am. I'm due for a break. Pretty soon. So that is something to be aware of. But I had been reading some good books, Joe Diaz's book. If you don't know Joe dead Diaz. He's a comedian. He's very funny. He's also an actor. He's kind of he's been on Rogan's podcast. He's been approached podcasts. He's part of that whole crew kind of but I just love Joe Diaz because he's a jersey guy. Cuban born immigrated to America. Rubber jersey. Really interesting story. Arnold's book I think it was last week just just getting into that but really trying to finish Joey's book. And again, as always, those are this week suggestions if you have any suggestions, topics, concerns questions, or you want to be a guest on this podcast because I am going to start bringing on guests of different backgrounds different stories people with an interesting story and interesting tale just interesting people Yeah, if you'd like to be a guest just please email the podcast will global@att.com for that you can hit me up on social fit global leads all my social links so that's that and jump into it if you're into it and yeah, hopefully you're having an amazing week ope evidence. Awesome weekend and please, if you're having a birthday do not because the entire birthday week if you're over the age of 40 that is a little PSA. So enjoy your family, enjoy your family. If you're trying to get into running joy that otherwise, like I said, enjoy your weekend and my friend